Saturday, 17 December 2016

NEW IN: Christmas Decorations!

As I sit here listening to Heart xtra Christmas on the tv I thought I should probably blog about the new decorations I've brought this year before It's too late as Christmas day is next sunday?!?! crazy. I went a bit mad so I wont go on and on. I've picked a few and by a few I mean 12, oops, of my favourites! I tend to look in most, well every, shop I can think of that sells decorations because you can get super pretty ones for cheap but some are worth splurging on!

I LOVE M&S decorations and this year they out did themselves! I knew I was rescuing a dog so wanted a dog decoration (my family has had Roxy, the cheeky Jack Russell cross, for just over three weeks and I will write all about her and the process soon!) and ended up with two! I went with a more tradtional option and then a pink poodle because why not! I also picked up a glittery unicorn because it's a freaking glittery unicorn and I got a pink present because I liked the old school vibe and it reminded me of my grandma's decorations. These were between £5 and £6 each but are on a 3 for 2.

I also got a light up A from M&S which was £5 and I love that it is red and glittery, so festive! The holographic snowflakes are from wilkinsons for £1 I believe, no more than £1.50 and look so pretty up. I don't really have a colour scheme it's kinda anything I like goes so these fit in perfectly being multicoloured! I picked up a set of two cars with the christmas trees on for £4.99 and a set of four of those mushrooms (two green, two red) for either £1.99 or £2.99, either way they were cheap, from Longacres garden center. Highly reccommend that place for christmas dec's as they literally have everything and it is all set out in colour ways which makes it easy.

I also went to Garsons garden center, this place wins most beautiful Christmas displays hands down, it is absolutely stunning, if it's near you you must go! I got the leaf, cooper star and humming bird from there and prices vary from £1.99-£3.99, I believe they are all Gisela Graham. The humming bird reminds me of my favourite tattoo I have. Finally the Effile tower is from Asda and was £3 and it reminds me of my trip to Paris, it is beautiful!

Finally what would Christmas be without a festive candle! I normally buy a big Yankee jar but as my Candy cane lane and another large yankee jar are still going strong from last year, I just stuck to votives this year.

The first four are ones I brought seperatly, are from the Yankee Home Inspirations range and they are Candy cane forest, Raspberry sundae, Merry mint chocolate and Winter mornings. These are really cheap and good a nice amount of scent, for the money you can't complain and I got these from Asda. I believe they are £1 each so nearly half of what the original/normal Yankee candle votives are.

I also got a set of three I believe from Asda but you can also get Yankee Home Inspiration from Tesco as well. These are Sparkling cinnamon spice, Fresh balsam fir and Santa's treat.

Finally I got a set of five orginal Yankee votives from Clintons as it included new Christmas scents I haven't got. These are Festive cocktail, All is bright, Macaron treats, Red apple wreath and Star anise and orange.

I think I'll be pretty busy trying to use all these up considering I still have a lot from last year but I can't help but buy them and they smell so good!!

I also brought a large snow globe from Clintons and wanted to give it a shout out as they are currently £10 instead of £15 and also play a little tune and I have been looking for what feels like forever for a decently priced nice snow globe so If you have that very same mission check them out! Mine is a little house surrounded by trees with Santa on his sleigh going over the house and it plays Silent Night, so cute!!

Where is your favourite place to buy decorations?- Amy x

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Wednesday, 14 December 2016

HAUL: Kylie Cosmetics and Jeffree Star Cosmetics

I finally decided to order a couple of Jeffree Star products and I am not dissappointed! I decided on a lip product from the holiday range called saggitarius because I am one haha, the colour is absolutely gorgeous and I have had a ton of compliments on it already. It is a dusky pinky purple, kinda reminds me of mac's up the amp but more muted, slightly deeper and pinkier but in that kinda shade range. It is so comfortable to wear, feels absolutely weightless and is easy to apply because the formula is the perfect consistency to go on smoothly and then dry quickly so it doesn't transfer. It also layers well so if you've eaten greasy food (it isn't a miracle worker!) you can easily reapply.

The highlighter is called Lavender snow and it is the biggest pan I have ever seen! The packaging is so eye catching, I'm not normally one for bright pink, dare I say tacky, packaging but this feels sturdy and goes with Jeffree Star's vibe. It is insanely pigmented and you can make it even more so as it can also be used wet. It is such an unusual lavender grey shade which probably doesn't look like it should work on the skin but it so does and looks amazing.

I also did a cheeky Kylie cosmetics order because I really wanted to try some of her eye products and either the pumpkin or ginger liquid lip. I decided on trying the ginger liquid lipstick because it was avaliable in a single and I seldom bother with lip liners because I'm lazy! I absolutely love the colour, it is like a dark orangey terracotta, really unusual and I wore it for the first time today and got complimented straight away haha.

I got the Camo cream shadow from the holiday collection as I thought it would be a great deeper everyday eye shadow base and I am so glad I was right! It is a gorgeous bronzey green shade with a slighter shimmer which is right up my street. At $20 it isn't cheap but the formula is amazing. It stays wet long enough for you to be able to blend it perfectly and then that's it, it is staying put! It looks beaut on it's own as well as being used as a base for other eye shadows which allows them to last longer.

I really couldn't decide between the holiday palette or the burgundy one but went for the burgundy one as I think I will get more use out of it and I have also just brought the Urban Decay Vice 4 palette which kinda has similar shades. I used the burgundy palette today and absolutely love it! the middle pink shade looks stunning in the crease and adds a pretty pop of colour. Warm toned eye shadows are my thing and this palette is perfection. The shadows are super pigmented, I was worried, even though I love the liquid lipsticks, that the eyeshadows wouldn't be of a great quality but I am happy to be proven wrong. The quality is definitely up there with the likes of Urban Decay so I am glad I finally brought a palette!

I definitely need to stop online shopping haha she says but I'm just as bad in the shops hah. What have you been buying recently? - Amy x

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Wednesday, 7 December 2016

ColourPop holiday haul

ColourPop had a free delivery promo going on so I decided to buy a few things from their holiday collection. Above is one of their sets called Nice, normally $19 but it is on sale for $15 right now dang it! (also shipping for international orders is free over $50 anyways) I haven't tried any of their cheek products before so I was excited to try the highlighter (Fanny pack, what a name haha) its super pigmented and a lovely icy white, perfect for the holidays. The ultra matte lip is in wild nothing, it's described as a dusty plum brown which I'd say is a pretty good description, I love the formula of these but my top tip is to apply lip balm on before application because it makes it alot easier to deal with because they dry super fast. The eyeshadow is called just for fun and is a stunning peachy pink with gold glitter, it is a beaut and the formula is amazing, it's like gel but it's not it's powder, how do they do it?!

This next set is called sweet, normally $16 but is on sale for $13. In this set you get an ultra satin lip in wink, a deep pinky plummy red kinda shade that is super pretty for this time of year and with the ultra satin formula there is no need to use lip balm prior to application and to be honest it is still pretty matte as well but more comfortable if you aren't a big fan of matte liquid lipsticks. You also get two eyeshadows, the one on the left is called Koosh and is a beautiful silvery taupe and is the most pigmented eyeshadow I have ever used! The one on the right is called tinsel and is a super pretty grey/lavender icy shade, the two together look lovely and will go perfectly with my dress for the Christmas works do!

I'm not mad keen on the holiday packaging as it isn't exactly that festive but it is pretty all the same and the frosted finish on the lip tubes does look nice. The more I look at the black packaging the more I like it, It is just very different from the white I'm used to!

You can't go wrong with ColourPop, the prices are amazing for the quality of product and yes you do have to pay a customs charge but if you order enough to get free shipping it is 100% worth it as you can just pretend the customs charge is a delivery charge and it makes it less painful haha. This is my second order from ColourPop and I have no doubt I shall be ordering again.

Have you tried anything from ColourPop yet? - Amy x

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Saturday, 15 October 2016

HUGE high-end duty free haul!

I have recently been on holibobs to Portugal. It was lovely to spend time with the family, especially the ickle ones! The weather was ridiculously hot, it got to 30 degrees and for someone that doesn't like the heat damn it was hot but it made the slightly chilly sea all the more inviting! I didn't wear make-up the whole time I was on holiday as it would of just melted off and playing with the kids in the pool was much more important! However I did make use of duty free on the way there and during my delay on the way back haha! Some of these are duty free exclusives but well worth it if you are off to the airport soon as will I be in just under a month to Iceland woohoo, bit of a difference in weather but I'm excited hah!

First up are a few very naughty purchases in the form of two YSL palettes and a Rouge Volupté Shine. The lip palette is incredible,called The Extremely Versatile lip palette, exclusive to duty free I must add, and the shades are all ones I would wear. Let's be honest you don't expect anything less from YSL! From left to right I believe we have Coco Givrée, Pink in Confidence, Coral intuitive, Pink in Paris, Le Rouge, Fuchsia, Fuchsia in Excess and Prune in Fire and the numbers/formula's are Volupté Sheer Candy N° 1, Rouge Volupté Shine N° 8, Rouge Volupté Shine N° 13, Rouge pur Couture N° 1, Rouge pur Couture N° 19, Rouge Volupté Shine N° 5 and Rouge Volupté Shine N° 18. The other palette is called the Very YSL fuchsia edition make-up palette and features 4 eye shadows, two lip products and a blush. The eye shadows are gorgeous, especially the taupe colour with the darker purple just in the corner for an everyday look and the light purple and pink are great for the inner corner and also work as highlights! The two lip colours are called rose pale and rose fonce, the blush is radiance #4 and the eye shadows are from top to bottom ombre solo #4 and ombre lumieres #9, #4 and #8. I'm getting the name direct from the packaging for this which is in french so if they don't make sense I'm sorry, I've tried!

I always make a point to get a mac lipstick on my travels and this time was no different (although the tradition of getting a lip product for a trip started with Chanel but meh, the last two have been mac!) I choose Capricious which is a lustre because although I was going somewhere hot, It is now autumn at home so I thought this browny reddy toned berry shade would be perfect and subtle enough for me to wear everyday, I don't know why I've not heard of it before, it is a lovely shade. I also picked up a MAC 217 because owning one isn't enough haha.

I got a roller ball of the Viktor&Rolf flowerbomb fragrance in New York and I knew eventually I would get the full size so shopping in duty free felt like the perfect time! It is a gorgeous complex fragrance, you really need to give this one a sniff! I believe this travel set is exclusive to duty free as it comes with a body lotion and the 50ml eau de parfum. This set is perfect for me as I love feeling like I'm getting something extra for the same price as the parfum on it's own. The bottle is just all the heart eyes, it looks as pretty as a picture sat on my dressing table/desk.

Now we are into the I have a huge delay and a 10% voucher sod it territory haha. Previously I have only tried one lipstick from Dior so I wanted to branch out. I've heard a lot about the Dior spray foundation and wanted to try it for myself and so far I love it. It's light, gives a gorgeous satin finish to the skin and is zero fuss! I also picked up the Diorshow mascara which I really like. The wand is perfect and really gets at all my lashes and gives me a fluttery effect and there's no smudging during wear, it is a great every day mascara.

I've wanted a high-end face powder for a while now, I have the Hourglass ambient light compact in dim light I believe but I just wanted a 'standard' one, not that Chanel is standard haha. I was into my second hour of being delayed with two more hours to go, armed with a 10% voucher from already hitting up duty free (whoops) I thought sod it and brought some products I'd been lusting after for a really long time. I have heard so much about this powder and it doesn't disappoint. It makes my skin look smooth, radiant and feels super soft. I think it does have the tiniest bit of shimmer in it if you look closely in the pan but nothing compared to the Hourglass ambient light powder and I quite like that it does because it does give a really nice natural radiant effect because sometimes powder can make me look a bit flat and cakey but this doesn't.

These were definitely blogger inspired purchases, actually just the anna edit inspired purchases as she is always talking so highly of the Clarins Instant Natural Light Lip perfectors. I originally just brought one from Gatwick, 01, as its a goes with anything soft natural pink and gives a lovely wash of colour but I liked it so much I picked up 08, a more autumn appropriate shade, on the way back! They give a lovely subtle wash of colour, are super comfortable to wear and make my lips feel super soft. I want more colours now!

Continuing with the autumnal/winter shades I picked up two other lip products I have been lusting after for a while. On the left is the Lancome Juicy Shaker in Berry in love. This is SO comfortable to wear as it is formulated with oil which you make think feels gross but it feels lovely and smooth on the lips. The colour is a lovely subtle true berry shade and fades to a lovely stain. I also picked up a Clinique pop in Love pop, a beautiful reddy berry shade with tiny tiny flecks of gold shimmer, untraceable on the lips but it makes it a really pretty and unique shade.

I said to myself no more makeup after this but considering I was already waiting for a few online orders, whoops, that was never going to happen! So you can expect to see Kylie cosmetics, Cult Beauty, Kat von D and Colourpop hauls coming your way soon! I will also be off to duty free again soon as well but I think I will try to be more controlled this time although I'm racking up the overtime with photography work so who knows! Thank you brain for letting me get some overtime in is all I'm sayin'! - Amy x

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Thursday, 6 October 2016

Hi my names Amy and I have bpd.

I've wanted to write a post about this for a while but have never had the confidence to do so. It wasn't until a couple of weeks ago that I realised just how important it is to talk about mental health, especially issues that have a bad rep or are less common and less understood. From time to time I post images on my twitter to explain how I'm feeling, normally in the middle of the night so no one takes any notice but for some reason it makes me feel a bit better that I've got how I feel out even though I am conflicted in wanting people to know what I have and not. On this occasion someone actually took note of an image I had posted (said image is above, hours are spent searching Pinterest when I'm having a particularly bad night) and said 'I feel you I have the same and we are stronger for it' and I just thought wow finally someone else I actually know has the same as me, I'm really not the only one and she's right we are stronger for it.

So bpd is borderline personality disorder and for me personally I am high functioning as I am able to go to work all be it not consistently full time (I'm on a part time contact and take on varying amounts of over time depending on how I'm feeling) and I'm able to wash my hair, get out of bed and get dressed (all be it challenging at times) and it generally goes undetected that anything is actually wrong or I like to think so. So how does having bpd make me feel... Imagine someone gives you a weird look (for me this could be entirely made up and actually they may have just been finishing a yawn or whatever) and feeling like they've just told you to go fuck yourself, that's kinda how I feel about everything. I may give someone a present and they say they like it, that's a good thing right, but for me I think well they've only said they liked it not it's amazing and the best present they've ever had they must think it's shit and I literally feel like I've been punched in the throat. I can be unreasonably angry at someone because they've moved my bag even though it was my fault for leaving it on the table and they only hung it on a door handle about a foot away! Most of the time I internalise all this angry annoyance and upset and eventually I will snap but at the people I love most who are only trying to help. I'm constantly questioning whether I'm acting reasonably or not.

When something good happens I get extremely overly happy, I could of just found a pound in my jeans pocket but I'm fucking buzzing about it or I managed to get to the dump or bank before it closed or I've got lots done or brought a bargain and then I get annoyed that people aren't as happy about it as me like duh it's only the dump Amy, chill. I'm so eager not to offend anyone 9 times out of 10 I say yes to things I don't want to do like over time at work or eating at a certain restaurant even though I don't like the food ect, spending so much time doing stuff you don't want to do just so you don't upset anyone kinda sucks and then I harbour resentment when all the time I've had this narrative in my head and whoever I'm with is none the wiser but by this point I'm probably acting like an irritated dick. When I'm happy I'm happy on another level, I will dance in the middle of the shop floor, make jokes and feel completely elated which you would think would be amazing but from feeling so good to feeling paranoid about whether I've offended someone with a joke I've said can be an emotional

Unlike bipolar my 'happy' episodes can last between an hour to a day or being extremely elated and then feeling up may last a few days and like wise my 'low' episodes may last a few days to a few weeks instead of a longer period of time like bipolar so it's very up down up down with only some time in between. It's hard to explain to someone how you are feeling when one minute I could be fine and the next I could be absolutely fuming or elated, my head it's like a whirlwind. I think yes I feel good I got this to no no no I want to hibernate today. It can sometimes be extremely hard to be motivated to even get out of bed and do general day to day things like washing my clothes or making the effort to make dinner and not just eat shit but at the same time I can have a run of days where I get so much done. I find myself constantly lying about when I've actually got out of bed because I constantly feel judged for being lazy when actually I'm just struggling and if I had the energy and motivation to get up and get stuff done, I so would!

I might be asked what's wrong and if I reply with someone moved the salt and I couldn't find it and I'm acting like someone has just slashed my tires, it makes me ilook bat shit cray. All the time I'm wondering have I annoyed someone when I've not done anything or I probably didn't talk loud enough but I can't help thinking no they hate me yada yada which is really bloody annoying as it's not acting rationally the majority of the time and getting myself upset for no reason and having to ask my sister am I in the right should I be annoyed?

Basically what I guess I'm trying to say is, if you know someone with bpd please bare this in mind as personally for me this is how I feel and I'm sure those with bpd will relate. Please know I'm not intentionally acting out, it's just something that's gone pear shape in my brain I can't control and truly wish I could and I don't intentionally mean to get angry and act unreasonably, it genuinely feels like I have been truly wronged even if rationally I haven't and I truly believe in the moment people should feel just as elated as me and feel wronged when they don't. Most importantly I don't choose to be this way and I'm fighting every day to overcome my emotions and act and react in a reasonable way. It may not even be remotely obvious there is anything wrong and for me that is because I am extremely good at internalising my feelings but that is extremely damaging to me and damaging to my family when I do finally snap. Please even if you can't understand bpd, don't belittle it because for many it is a constant conflict going on in their minds and a small bit of support can make an amazing difference. If your feelings are hurt by someone that has acted out please know, that I and I'm sure others beat themselves up enough and will eventually realise we were in the wrong be it a minute later or a few hours, especially if I'm snappy at my mum I always feel like absolute shit and make sure I apologise but luckily for me my mum is amazing and understands I don't choose to be a dick and because I love her I let my guard down more. There are other things that are huge factors for me personally and most likely others that I don't feel comfortable talking about at the moment but maybe one day! If you have any questions or want to react out just spend me a message on Twitter or email me (it's in the side bar) and I will be happy to start a conversation.

I wish other people could be as understanding as my mum but alas the stigma is still strong with depression, so trying to get people to understand something that is talked about even less feels like an impossible task. Basically just be kind to people because you don't know what is going on behind closed doors. I wish I felt comfortable enough to say no I don't want to do this today because I am having trouble with my mental health but alas that just doesn't seem to be acceptable so I just do what I don't want to yet again. Hopefully one day we can all be respectful enough to one another to be freely able to talk about mental health in a way that isn't damaging or belittling.

So hi 👋🏻 my names Amy and I have bpd.

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Wednesday, 17 August 2016

Kylie Cosmetics KOKO K

I finally caved, set my alarm a while back and snagged myself Koko K. I really didn't know what shade to go for so did a lot of swatch searching online and decided on Koko K because Gabriella (Velvet Ghost) reviewed it and I think my skin tone is pretty similar to hers before she tans and it looked like a super pretty shade on her so I went for it! I was a bit nervous as on some people Koko K can look really light (which is why I paid attention to the persons skin tone when I was looking at swatches so it matched mine) but it is literally my perfect nude. I normally go for darker toned nudes so I have nothing like this in my collection already which is always a good thing and it is the sort of shade where I feel completely comfortable wearing it to work ect and don't feel like it is screaming look at me I have lipstick on haha oh I'm weird.

I would say the above picture represents the shade the most accurately. I took these images outside so the light was constantly changing so that is why the shade looks different in the bottom picture, It definitely isn't that much terracotta in tone!

The lip pencil and liquid lipstick match in colour perfectly. The pencil is so creamy, comfortable and easy to use, maybe a bit too creamy as after two uses it needs to be sharpened, like now my bad haha but it really is amazingly comfortable to use and doesn't drag your lips at all.

The liquid lipstick itself is as light as a feather on, I often forget I've even got anything on and it stays put whilst eating! I am surprised by how much I love the shade, it's a beaut!

The ordering process was fine. I was getting sweaty palms having to keep refreshing and go like the wind to put it in my basket and check out haha but it was fine. Making an account prior definitely sped up the process. I think unless it is a new release it is a lot easier to order now anyways. It arrived really quickly, in a matter of days, considering it came from the US. I didn't get a customs charge, I'm guessing because it was only slightly over the £15 limit whoever checked it was feeling nice and let it go? Anyways I am not complaining! If I did have to pay customs it is usually 20% of the total cost so just bare that in mind if you plan on buying a few things.

Would I buy more? Yes. I wouldn't just buy one on it's own again because the price of shipping means it is kinda expensive for just one product ($29 plus $14.95 shipping) although I guess you get two things in the set but If I was buying a few things together I definitely would to make the most of the shipping cost.

Have you managed to try anything from Kylie Cosmetics? Would you pay that much for a product?
Talk soon - Amy x

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Tuesday, 16 August 2016

Melt Cosmetics ordering process and haul!

I have been a follower of Melt Cosmetics right from the beginning on Instagram and before that following both Lora and Dana whom created the company and they have come a long way! I got a liptsick, Belladonna II, for Christmas a couple of years back and the formula is insanely good so I had always wanted to get more and then they came out with eyeshadow quads and then more recently singles and I just thought sod it customs charge come at me!

The whole ordering process was pretty standard, I received updates on my order about processing and when it had been shipped with tracking so I could excitedly watch it on it's journey! I had to get in contact with them as the shipment tracking said that my parcel has been delivered and they were extremely helpful and advised I check the tracking number on the royal mails website and hey presto I was able to see that the parcel was at my local delivery depot waiting for me to pay a customs charge, yay haha. The order came to $106 and because of that I got free shipping because I spent over $100. USPS standard is $10 normally or the USPS Priority with tracking is $25 and I am guessing that is what I had because I did get a tracking number so I would definitely advise getting your order to over $100 'cause hell I would rather more makeup than paying for shipping! In terms of the customs charge I had to pay it really wasn't that much at all. It was only £22, I wanna say £22.20 but I can't quite remember, It was £22 something! Which included an £8 'handling fee' from Royal Mail, cheers for that! Basically the customs charge wouldn't put me off ordering again.

First up I picked up the Love Sick stack because the shades I mean come on *heart eyes*. The formula is amazing, the pans are huge, more like the size of blush pans than standard eyeshadow pans and the shades are all kinds of awesome. You can create a really pretty unusual smokey eye with this stack. The shadows are incredible pigmented, last on the lids and do not crease. My favourite shade is promiscuous because it is kinda duochrome, in some lights it's purple and in others it's slightly blue. I don't have any other shades like this in my collection and the packaging is so cool, it is magnetic so that just kinda stick together and then you can spread them out like above to use and they are still connected and the stacks also come with a mirror.

I also picked up a single in blurr because I kept seeing it online and it is the perfect transition shade as the name would suggest but it really is and it works with so many different shades. Again the formula is amazingly smooth, there's no fallout, it lasts on the lid and is just a winner all round to be honest. I also brought a mirror for this one as well because it was only $3. Obviously I could of just attached it to the love sick stack but I'd rather it was separate.

I also picked up two lipsticks. The left in Darkroom and the right in Laced. Darkroom was limited edition and I was gutted when I couldn't get it but they made it part of the permanent line so I knew it had to be mine! It is a stunning deep raspberry wine colour and it is perfect for autumn so I can't wait to start wearing it! Laced is part of the nude collection and an unusual choice for me because I don't often go for true nudes because they tend to look weird on me but this one is really nice! It is just dark enough to not make me look weird and kinda has an ashy almost lilac tone to it with a bit of a terracotta vibe, it's a really unusual pretty shade. They are both matte and their staying power is insane which is why I knew I wanted more after getting Belladonna II because you can even eat a whole meal and this lipstick isn't going anywhere!

So that is my Melt Cosmetics experience and haul. Have you tried anything from this brand? (If you haven't you need to!) - Talk soon, Amy x

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